THE HAUNTED Frontman: 'I've Been A Negative Creep Most Of My Life'

THE HAUNTED frontman Peter Dolving has posted the following message on his official MySpace page:

"Tonight after the show I was listening to my friend Morten's band SLOW DEATH FACTORY, kick-ass lowdown mutherfuckin' bruiser stuff, and my thoughts started trailing off. Earlier in the evening I did this interview about Swedish metal and about my previous band MARY BEATS JANE. I realized what drugged out sluggish drunks we were, but at the same time we were so right in our basic music approach. The music was about an experience. Never mind any fucking scene. The sheer groove, the words, it was all an enigma aiming for the heart and soul. Listening to SLOW DEATH FACTORY brings that part of me back, but with the drugs. I feel so mutherfucking relieved. It's like I've come to somekind acceptance of another part of me and I feel just a little bit more together.

"The sheer brutality of my will to live. That is where I've been so wrong in interpeting so much of my own actions and what I thought was my desire. Hell, I never wanted to die. I want to live without the bullshit load of bogus guilt tripping and ignorance that I thought was normality. There is no such thing. Sure, responsibilty I can accept, though I didn't really know what all that was about until it started showing itself in the kindest of ways. All I got to do is take care of the basics. And if mutherfuckers can't get the deeper spirituality of life it ain't my problem. I don't have to fucking adapt, I can treat folks with some respect and dignity and if I get jack shit maybe I'll just walk around. Ain't no big deal.

"What I do know is the fact that I gain so much from just fucking being me and speaking my mind, not trying to live up to or proving myself. It's a whole learning thing, but I feel over the last couple of years so much good shit has revealed itself in my life. I just never knew that for me it was to be found in the process of staying clean and sober. All the strength, all the love, all the determination and humility I felt was just out of reach is right there. I've just been lookin in the wrong spot.

"As I looked out at the crowd tonight I felt a deeper love to rock and all these people who love it as much as myself. This gives. It gives me access to my own emotions, it gives me a deeper sense of peace, it gives me an understanding of myself and as I've started to clean out my demons it gives me a greater reason. Yeah, I'm sure some little fuckwad out there who reads this will find it provocative, or proof of whatever, but you know what? There are more of us love-hungry life-lusting mutherfuckers anyway, so why even bother with that. I've been a negative creep most of my life, but that's 'cause I was lacking some basic information. You and me, we matter. You and me are so different but so much the same, and that's the goddamned beauty of it all. The pain of life is constant, but hey, so is love and truth and in that there is peace to enjoy, there is fellowship to nurture.

"Nah, I don't really know you much, but that's alright — we still got time, and when the day comes to die that's all good too. My gratitude goes out to you. Life is there for the one who gives in to it. Ain't fuckin around with that, you either let go or keep falling..."